Dawn Song. Translated by TotoroJo and Erico.
This text comprises pages 43 to 58 of the Xenogears Comic Anthology.
(Note: I didn’t put in page numbers, but one paragraph fits with one block of text in the manga so its not hard to follow)
I long for... I long for my own freedom.
Forced to keep on existing for the sake of the weapon Deus.
Never questioning, never disobeying, simply following the program written into my cells.
I am a manipulator of people. I am one who lives as a parasite preying on women.
Living merely for the reconstruction of God <Deus>
Not permitted to possess a self of my own.
Unable even to choose death.
A tool used for the self-restoration of Deus.
Changing vessels, forced to live on.
And yet, each time I awakened, as I took in the human emotions the vessels remembered...
I started longing to be released from this fate...
And the bonds that bind me started to waver.
The other me I was separated from
I envy thee.
I want to love and be loved, as thou loved him
Be it just once in my life, I want to feel that burning emotion...
Just as the other me burned with love for him <Ramsus>
I am empty, nothing.
No matter what it is, I just want something to fill that emptiness.
I wonder, when my part is played will I be released from this fate?
Or will the whole of me perish and be lost?
Someday I want to be reborn as myself.
Not a borrowed body, me, myself.
Now I am just awaiting my last awakening, but...
Someday, I want to become my true self.